Today was Sunday... Sunday's are a long day for me. I am not complaining they are often a great day! I usually get up at 6:30 leave the house by 7:20 and don't get home until about 9 and then in bed by 11.
I drove home after having taken a student home and I noticed a girl on the side of the road waiting for the bus. As I got closer I recognized the girl. She was someone that I had spent some time with a few years ago in the youth group. I hadn't really talked to her in a while. So I was faced with a dilemma that normally is not a dilemma. I had a conversation with someone that was really more like conflict resolution. Conflict and I are not good friends. Conflict usually finds a way to wipe me out, and keep my mind processing over and over all the things that I should have, could have, said instead or in place of. After 2 hours of resolving the conflict, I was done.
As I drove by I thought I should turn around and see where she is going and see if she wanted a ride. I was so wiped, and so needing to get home to safe haven that I drove right passed and then got frustrated with myself for telling students to take time for people, sacrifice for people, and put their needs in front of yours and then I plow through it. I disconnected with you and who you are God. I disconnected with the girl because I was unwilling to put her before myself.
I am sure she got where she was supposed to go, I am sure her day wasn't interrupted because I didn't stop, I live in Mission Viejo so I am sure she was fine. That is not the point. The point is being faithful.
But the leadership small group we started with the High School was amazing. Students opened up, revealed some things in their lives. I sat back as I watch them support each other and love each other through some pretty rough stuff. It was amazing to see just how much they loved each other and cared for each other. I have much to learn from them.
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